What to do or even say?
I'm done grieving. Band is approaching. This is my last marching season, my last year in high school. I'm not sure what to do. I have so much to do, but now my mind needs to rest, so I guess I could read but I really just need to take the thoughts in my head and put them to words so they can stop spinning through my conciousness.
I can hear the Phantom of the Opera music playing in the living room. I live in a tiny house, but it has some real character. I rather like it. Someday I hope to build my own house. I want so many things in a house. I would like a tree house and a cob house at the same time. One thing is constant, I want lots of trees and to be in the mountains. I want a bare japanese style home, very simple. I want solar energy as well as electric, and plumbing as well as a rain collector and a well. I want ornate designs and simplicity, curved surfaces, colored glass, dark wood, tiles....there's so much I think that I'll just build houses for fun on one large piece of property. I probably won't have that much money, but oh well, obtaining a piece of land on which I can build my home is looming somewhere in the future. I'll think on it later.....the phantom of the opera soundtrack is really very good. Did you know that the theme in one of songs was actually taken from the old silent film score made back in the thirties I think? It's really quite remarkable.
Tiffany and Aaron and Mama-chelle left today around two o'clock. I really miss them. Aaron just keeps getting taller, Mama-chelle is looking for a job and a place to live in the metroplex, and Tiffany's classes in Weatherford start on August 29, Penny's Birthday. I really miss them all, ever since we moved from Stephenville.
A double major? Hmn....I just realized that I will probably attempt it. I've been pondering it for some time, and I think that I will probably actually do it. Oh gosh, what am I getting myself into? Oh well....I'll try it my freshman year and if it doesn't work then I will choose.
You know, I was just thinking of when I was a little girl and I couldn't wait to get out and live my life, until the first 18 or 20 years had gone and I could go out into the world. I would have my own house, wash my own dishes, have a job, pay my own bills, decide where to go, when to go, do whatever, travel, anything. But now I realize that I am living right now, and what I do now will affect what I may do later. I cannot sever all ties with my childhood, my family, my past, and just go on. I cannot wait to start living or I never will. There's a shirt or something, I do remember, and it says something like, "I will not tiptoe quietly through life to arrive safely at death."
Anyway, I just had to get a lot of stuff off of my mind, and now its clear so I can think on other things that need to be contemplated. Talk lata...
I can hear the Phantom of the Opera music playing in the living room. I live in a tiny house, but it has some real character. I rather like it. Someday I hope to build my own house. I want so many things in a house. I would like a tree house and a cob house at the same time. One thing is constant, I want lots of trees and to be in the mountains. I want a bare japanese style home, very simple. I want solar energy as well as electric, and plumbing as well as a rain collector and a well. I want ornate designs and simplicity, curved surfaces, colored glass, dark wood, tiles....there's so much I think that I'll just build houses for fun on one large piece of property. I probably won't have that much money, but oh well, obtaining a piece of land on which I can build my home is looming somewhere in the future. I'll think on it later.....the phantom of the opera soundtrack is really very good. Did you know that the theme in one of songs was actually taken from the old silent film score made back in the thirties I think? It's really quite remarkable.
Tiffany and Aaron and Mama-chelle left today around two o'clock. I really miss them. Aaron just keeps getting taller, Mama-chelle is looking for a job and a place to live in the metroplex, and Tiffany's classes in Weatherford start on August 29, Penny's Birthday. I really miss them all, ever since we moved from Stephenville.
A double major? Hmn....I just realized that I will probably attempt it. I've been pondering it for some time, and I think that I will probably actually do it. Oh gosh, what am I getting myself into? Oh well....I'll try it my freshman year and if it doesn't work then I will choose.
You know, I was just thinking of when I was a little girl and I couldn't wait to get out and live my life, until the first 18 or 20 years had gone and I could go out into the world. I would have my own house, wash my own dishes, have a job, pay my own bills, decide where to go, when to go, do whatever, travel, anything. But now I realize that I am living right now, and what I do now will affect what I may do later. I cannot sever all ties with my childhood, my family, my past, and just go on. I cannot wait to start living or I never will. There's a shirt or something, I do remember, and it says something like, "I will not tiptoe quietly through life to arrive safely at death."
Anyway, I just had to get a lot of stuff off of my mind, and now its clear so I can think on other things that need to be contemplated. Talk lata...
posted by Nanashi Lunam Tenshi at 9:04 PM
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